Comes From Within

Happiness should comes from within ourselves.Not comes from friends that you hang around with, or from money that you have, or from bigger salary that you earn, or from who is your father ,or mother, not from all those things.Not from outer sources of our life. Even though I have more money than yesterday, why I don't feel happy today? After I smile and laugh with my best friends...then even though I am broke, I feel happy? Feel content!!! After having several time talking to my mother - after avoiding her many times -I feel relieve? Feel content..Why after sending sms to my father when he is away, I feel content?? I think because I am making connection to myself, doing what I really want to do,making connection and happy for what I have,appreciate what I have,appreciate and give time to connect with those people around me...for these, I am happy, I am content. Like last night I have a good sleep..when I felt life is dull yesterday. That was because I chose to watch a film : Lord of The Ring-Return of The King...beautiful film about fellowship ,trust,courage,hope..... Thank you God for made me grabbing a book of John Gray, who has showed me this in 1999.From his book 'How to get what you want and want what you have' many things opened up to me, i come to know about things... open up my view that I , myself could find medicine for myself, some stage of life that skipped should fulfilled before i move on or continue my journey to the next stage.I become lighter to deal with life difficulties,to deal with my parents, the biggest one is to deal with myself.

Take a Bus, Train, or Plane?

On holidays.. .Make plan to travel and number one is how to get there... which one is better? Taking a bus, train or plane? where am i going to stay? where will i spend time? In life, our short-term plan is between one - five years.What do i want to be in two years from now?Where i want to be in three years from now? Whom am i going to be with in the future? these are some questions that pop up in my head. .and more In life we face risk ... must take risk to move ahead... Honestly, i am afraid to choose someone to be my spouse.. i can not risk my life ..but i have to...

CHANGE...

The foundation of life is based on the word : change. Some of us fear of changes, while everything is changed quickly. Time is ticking.People is getting older,getting fatter, getting madder...that's the negative side of changing. Children becoming teenager, they are getting smarter, they are getting wiser,they are stronger, they are nicer than we used to be,etc...That's the positive side of changing.The goodness versus the bad ones, each of it spread to find people who will listen to it.   My belief is good things always win,'coz it's contagious and people starts to listen to their subconscious mind recently...even for those in the west, they are changing becoming more 'east' than eastern people...(in this journey i have found a belief that somehow good and bad comes in one package for people to acknowledge and choose the good one.)   Our subconscious mind is where the wisdom of us live. It understands how to deal with changing in our life. It teaches us how to deal with certain people, it shows us how to absorb the simple happiness in life, sometimes it tries to interrupt our comsumption of the material world and introduces us to essence of life, it connects us to the One who gives life to us, THE ONE that LARGER THAN LIFE Itself, THE LORD. not the lord of the ring..you movie-freak :P

One Drop of Water

Talking to myself what should i do.So i make plan start from today,to make my future brighter.    Try to live in present 'coz someone said to live in present can make most of what you are doing, and when you maximize for now, later you will get big result, insyaAllah.   Yes, i am a Moslem. I also do my five times prayers a day.Not try, but start to do it properly and at the beginning of the time.I also do night prayers at 3 am (that's the plan!!) :D well, i do it start at 4 am.Still couldn't wake up at 3 am. I also do my dhuha prayer, between 7 am - 12 am/pm.I connect myself to my God, Allah swt 24 hours /1440 minutes /86400 seconds/day...   It was interrupted when i have someone who steal my heart..he was a good guy.(His name is Widar.He respects his mother so much, he doesn't continue our relationships when he knows it made her cry to know her younger son has a relationships with me, someone older than him.I can accept this. What if this was happening when I was in college? Huh, I will never understand and accept something like this..soooo, I am change!!! Alhamdulillah, what can I say more??  At least I absorb a few things from him…never skip my mahgrib prayer even though I am on the road, should stop by at the nearer mosque,becoming better daughter to my parents, treat everybody nicer,lighter, lol funny how life-school  sent someone to be your tutor with all of that heart-ache huh?!  :>    )   So here i am again, contemplating in God again.Later i should connect with Allah swt 24 hours/1440 minutes/86400 seconds/day even though i have a man in my heart.   Now, i am living my life and do things as best as i can, want to know what kind of a man i am going to have a relationships next, what man that Allah puts into my life...